Dear everyone:

This is going to be short because I have already wasted enough of your time in this life.
I am sorry.
I have done some things to so many friends in the past - people who I loved and STILL love so much, and some whom I don't...
But none of you deserved what I did to you all.
It was different for everyone, but in one way or another, I betrayed a lot of you, and hurt you and was utterly completely selfish.

I am so ashamed of what I was, I could easily put the blame on my mental illness - but no. It was just me being selfish.

I am so so sorry - you know who you are - I do not want forgiveness, I just need you to know some things:


1: I never meant to hurt you. I just didn't think.

2. (For those of you in Ireland) I live far away now, and although I'll be in Dublin occasionally, you will never have to see me again.

3. I am different now. I am stable and I think before I act - I put others first.

4. I hurt so much over these incidents. If it's any consolation.


My memories of the ones who I hurt and who no longer wish to know me will always be in my heart, as happy memories, crushed by my own horribleness.

I care for you all.
I'm sorry